Thursday, April 22, 2010

The "Uh-huh" Syndrome

Those with small children
Do you suffer from this disease?
When your child is non-stop-talking
Do you “uh-huh” them just to please?
My oldest is a talker
Of this there is no doubt
He can ramble on forever
When there’s nothing to talk about
“Mom, did you know there’s a bird on our tree?”
“It’s black….no, it's blue….wait, it's red!”
My lips call out “uh-huh” to my boy
And I systematically nod my head
“Mom do you know what my favorite animal is?”
“It’s a bird…no a dog…can we get some fish?”
I reply back “uh-huh” once again
As I finish my grocery list
Off to the store he talks from the back seat
“That cloud looks like a car in the sky”
“When we’re at the store can we look at the toys?”
“There’s some Hot Wheels I’d like to buy”
Once again I reply “uh-huh” to his words
Unaware of my disease’s progression
Until at the Walmart in the pet food aisle
Do I learn a most dreadful lesson….

“Can we get my little fish now? I want to hold him while we shop.”
“I think I like the red ones the best. See them in the aquarium at the top?”
For some reason these statements jerk me awake
Why does my son assume there are fish we will take???

Then I think back --
I remember some of his words
Favorite animals listed….
The colors of birds…
Oh, no I didn’t!
I agreed to buy fish!
Did he also say Hot Wheels?
Tell me I didn’t do this!!
How do I fix the predicament I’m in?
Do I lie, or back out?
In defeat, I give in.

TAKE HEED TO THIS STORY
Don’t let this syndrome get you
Or you could end up like me
With a bowl of red fish too.

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 16

Okay, I was scared to do it, but I got on the scales today. My fears were confirmed, I was up four pounds. Uuuugggghhhh! But, what can I do? I could mope about it (I kind of did this morning....) Or, realize that I haven't been keeping my eyes on Him and turn things around!

I have been reading in Matthew and this mornings scriptures SCREAMED at me! I was reading Matthew 23....verse 25 hit me right between the eyeballs

"Woe to you teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence."

Now, who ever wants to be compared to a Pharisee? Not I! And yet, this is how I have been acting. I hate to leave the house without my hair done or my make-up on, but when I sit down to the dinner table, I don't think twice about stuffing my face even when my body has given me a clear sign that I am full. Hmmm.....maybe Jaime has some house-keeping issues. Take the vacuum to the greed and dust down the self-indulgence. Be gone!

I will be back next week - with a "cleaner" inside and hopefully better news to report!

Lamentations 3: 22-23 "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness!"

21 POUNDS LOST 36 DAYS TO GO

Thursday, April 15, 2010

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 15

Do you ever feel like you just can't catch a break? Sometimes I feel like so much is being thrown at me, even if I were microscopically-sized - I'd still get hit. Though the stresses of the world may get me down, I am always to go to Him. However, there are days....and sometimes those days are in consecutive order, where I don't. I mope. I cry. I ignore God and I eat. OUCH!

Here's the thing. My grandpa recently had a soccer-ball sized tumor removed from his abdominal area. We have also learned it is malignant. He is slowly (but surely) recovering. Last weekend I drove down to where he was hospitalized from Friday evening until Monday afternoon. Have any of you ever watched a loved one suffer? Let me tell you, it is a hard thing to watch. I would sit and watch my Grandpa grimace and sometimes even let out audible groans. All I could do was hold his hand and pray.

While I was visiting, my best friend's son was also hospitalized. (Same town, different hospital). Her son has been in and out of hospitals since the day he was born. In the last six months he has had six different hospital stays. He is now there yet again. How hard it is for us as parents to watch our children suffer!!! For my friend, she has watched her child suffer for six years.

My heart has been aching for days. I wonder how God can use all this pain for his glory. I hate to see the people I love suffer. I question God (and even I get mad at Him from time to time too.) Why all this pain? My tiny brain can't understand God's perfect plan. Needless to say, I have been in a funk since Friday.

Today however, I had the opportunity to encourage my friend/relative. She has been a girl that has been there for me so many times throughout my life. Today however, she was discouraged about some past hurt. Despite my own recent pain and worry, God gave me the opportunity to lift her up and you know what, friends? In encouraging her, I was encouraged. It was amazing.

It reminded me of my new friend Margery. She has been a HUGE "encourager" for me in the past month or so with my weight loss. In fact, I told her today that I was going to consider her my "jewel of the day!" What a blessing it is to have people like Margery in your life!! (Thank you Margery for all you have done for my spirits!)

I write all this to get you to guys a thinkin'.....who have you encouraged today? What has God blessed you with that you could, in turn, pass on to another? Even in our hurting moments, how can we lift someone else up? Many of you reading my blog have told me you are also Weigh Down Dieters. When people see you and ask, "How have you lost all that weight?" What is your answer? Do you give God the glory and then encourage others that they can do the same? No matter our situation - God places people in our lives we are to encourage. Are we doing it? It could be your child, your husband, your friend, your fellow Weigh Down Dieter.....God has put us in specific situations that we might help and encourage others.

I didn't weigh again this week. Unfortunately, I know I went to food instead of God too many times to count this week. But as that old Bill Gather song goes, I am a "kid under construction" and "my paint is still wet." However, even being a "kid under construction" I must remember, "the Lord ain't through with me yet!" I will weigh next Wednesday and I promise to report back to you then.

This week, I feel that God has put my weight loss on display to give me the opportunity to 1) give Him the glory and 2) encourage others. I do not want to let Him down. Tomorrow is a new day. May He be with us all!

Philippians 1:6
He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus

Proverbs 12:25
An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up.

Romans 12: 6...8
We have different gifts according to the grace given us....if it is encouraging, let him encourage.

Hebrews 3:13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.

My Girlfriend

My girlfriend...
Knows me inside out
My girlfriend...
Knows what my hurt is all about
My girlfriend...
Loves me through those crabby days
My girlfriend...
Won't run in darkness - but stay

And yet...

No matter how much my girlfriend loves
It is uncomparable to HIM above
I am blessed because she knows this
She directs my eyes to HE who lifts
God bless my precious girlfriend today
Because of HIM - she can help me along the way

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 14

Well, the good news is I am not up any “poundage.” I am encouraged by this. My fast went well, and I started up again with my friend Margery today. I know that when I am fasting with another person, I am much more likely to stay committed and not cheat. (I have to admit it is so easy to grab a cracker off the kids’ lunch plate or nibble as I cook….please do not think less of me!) However, when I know there is another person fasting with me, I don’t want to let her down! Why is it that I will cheat on myself (or worse, God) but I won’t cheat on another individual? What does this say about my psyche? (Check that – I don’t think I want to know the answer!)

Margery shared with me a quote from Gwen Shamblin that was mentioned in one of the online Weigh Down classes. (Margery is currently enrolled in these online classes. Way to go Margery!!) I thought it was very encouraging and wanted to share with all you what Margery relayed to me.
When you feel an urge to eat and you are not hungry, it is hunger for God! Go to His Word! Do not hang out near food. Do not long for the food. Do not look for the food. Pray, “God, clean up my mind.” Pray, “God, in the name of Jesus Christ, take away this nagging head hunger, this longing, and turn that back into a longing to be inside Your will and to have Your approval. Amen.”

If you are one who struggles with “head hunger” (defined: wanting to eat, but not feeling any physiological hunger) like I do, I think this prayer is perfect! I know I will be praying it.
Though I mainly write about my struggles with weight, I do have other areas in my life I struggle with as well (surely, I didn’t have you all completely fooled!) This prayer from the Weigh Down class got me thinking about all my areas of struggle. No matter what the issue might be, I am to take EVERYTHING to God. He is the one who can fill me up where I am lacking. I get frustrated with my children (gasp!) I get irritated with my husband (double gasp!) I don’t understand why I can’t always have my way especially when my desires seem like very “Christian” needs (are you hyperventilating yet?) Tell me I not alone in wanting things that can only be filled by God? My issue with food is simply ONE of many struggles – all of which must be taken directly to God for help, comfort, and guidance.

I will leave you with these verses….I hope you find them and the above prayer encouraging for this next week!

John 15:5
I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

Luke 18:27
Jesus replied, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.”

Psalm 127:1-2
Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain.

Isaiah 65:24
Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear.

25 POUNDS LOST 51 DAYS TO GO

Friday, April 2, 2010

Dialing 911

Junior struck again this last Saturday
Though this time he had not a thing to say
Just picked up the phone while with his Grandma
Pushed three little puttons to make a call
But then instead of hanging up
He left the phone on -- the silly duck
As the police walked to my mother-in-law's door
She wondered what in the world they were knocking for?
Opened the door - greeted them with a sweet smile
They asked, "By chance, did you give 9-1-1 a dial?"
Immediately her eyes turned back to her grandson
Taking in just what he had done
Gave a little chuckle and let out a sigh
Thanked the police and waved them goodbye
Realizing now she has another story to tell
About how her little Junior is as onery as ....heck.

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 13

There has been a lot going on in our home the last few weeks. That coupled with the arrival of my monthly FedEx package (as my husband so lovingly puts it...) has not been good with my desire for food. I have not weighed myself this week. (And I am going to refrain until next week). I know that I can still fit into my smaller clothes, but I also know I need to slow down shoveling the food into my mouth as I have been these last two weeks. I am going on a fast again. Those seem to always get me back on track -- getting my comfort from God, not from food.

??? POUNDS LOST 63 DAYS TO GO

Thursday, March 25, 2010

The Trophy

On our first official potty training day
My oldest surprised me in the most humorous way
Junior had just accomplished #2 in the potty chair
While everyone was cheering, our oldest ran upstairs
In just a few seconds, he came running back down
With an old 4H trophy he'd recently found
And in the most encouraging way
He presented his brother with the gold-chipped display
Though I thought it was funny - it also warmed my heart
I realized my oldest was more than dirt, guns, and farts
And despite all their squabbles one thing was true
My boys love each other - for things as simple as going poo

POTTY TRAINING IS...

Potty training is...
A job no mother desires
Potty training is...
A technique you cannot simply inspire
Potty training is...
A necessity despite the strain
Potty training is...
No fun, icky and a pain

AND YET...

Potty training is...
Teaching a truly independent act
Potty training is...
A "they're-getting-older" fact
Potty training is...
A grossly-liberating skill to teach
Potty training is...
The first step in preventing kids becoming a leech!

I'm back...

I took a little blogging break
Underestimated just how long it'd take
To potty train my little Junior
I thought I'd be back blogging sooner
I truly missed reading your inspiring words
(You know cleaning up "accidents" is for the birds!)
But now I'm back with my rhyming posts
And my Junior is trained....well, almost!

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 12

Another week, but no weight loss. I am not complaining. I am honestly happy. I would much rather have no results than to be up any "pound-age". Plus, I have been dealing with some stressful issues. So, the fact that I'm stressing and not eating to comfort myself is HUGE!! (And my scales prove this fact!!)

John 16:33
I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

Matthew 11:28
Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.

25 POUNDS LOST 70 DAYS TO GO

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 11

GOOD NEWS AGAIN! I am down four more pounds! Making my total loss 25 pounds. This last week, I went "shopping" in my own closet! I tried on clothes that I haven't worn in 8 years...I can't tell you how good it felt to put on skirts and pants that have not fit for YEARS. I seriously have a whole new set of clothes I can now daunt in public! Fun and exciting don't come close to describe my emotional state. I feel like a new woman. I still want to lose AT LEAST 15 more pounds, but I'll take more as it continues to come off!

Psalms 34:22
The Lord redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.

Psalms 37:4
Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.



25 POUNDS LOST 78 DAYS TO GO

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 10

This will be short and sweet -- still working with Junior on potty training. After fasting with my fellow Weigh Down dieter Tracey last weekend, I felt like I was back on track again. This morning, I was down the pounds I had gained plus one more! Therefore:



21 POUNDS LOST 85 DAYS TO GO

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Blogging Refraining for Potty Training!

I'm going to take
A little blogging break
I'm potty training Junior
In hopes he'll be ready sooner
Than was his older brother
As I was a pregnant, lazy mother
Who pushed off training him to potty
As I look back I think, "Maybe I was naughty?"
But the big kid is doing fine
And now it's Junior who'll walk the line

So, "Adios People!" For the next few days
Feel free to lift me up, if you're one who prays!!

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 9

Okay, I've been struggling for two weeks now. For whatever reason, the stronghold I thought I had overcome with food is back. Unfortunately, I am up three pounds. (I am hoping some of this has to do with Mother Nature and her unwelcomed arrival....but nonetheless, I'm up on the scales...not down).

I will be praying much more this week. Spending more time on my knees.


2 Corinthians 4:8

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but no in despair, persecuted, but not abandonded; struck down, but not destroyed.


17 POUNDS LOST 92 DAYS TO GO

Monday, March 1, 2010

Periodic Mood Swings

DISCLAIMER: For those of you who blush easily, this may not be for you. But my husband lifted my spirits this week and I wanted to share this funny moment with you!

Every month she sends me a gift
But it never gives my spirits a lift
The present always contains the same thing
Crankiness, headaches, and lots of bloating
I can usually tell when she's about to arrive
And my husband wonders if he will survive
Because I am not pleasant during this time of waiting
I am not desirable - there will be no mating
As I have aged my symptoms are worse
(Isn't getting older ENOUGH of a curse?!)
My poor husband, with his quick charm and wit
Does what he can to snatch me out of the pit
This last week in the kitchen, he caught me off guard
(Which, when in this state - it isn't real hard...)
He said, "I'm gonna check around the FedEx website."
Perplexed I asked, "Why would you do that tonight?"
To this he responded with his crooked little grin
"I want the tracking number for when Mother Nature's getting in!"

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Dreamers

If you are a dreamer
Dream with big intentions
Don't let things hold you back
Insecurities will cause you tension
Aim high! Think big thoughts!
You can do anything
With the brain you've got!
You are a dreamer
God gave you this mind
To help you achieve feats
That are one-of-a-kind!

Friday, February 26, 2010

The Mouths of My Babes...

My two little boys are killing me this week
By what they say when they speak
My five year old told me this of his snout
"I just use my finger to get the snot out!"
I told him if he acted this way
He must wash his hands three hundred times a day
To this he said in no certain terms
"I know, because of OTHER people's germs!"
Though I may sigh, I can't lose hope
His nose is clear and he uses soap!

My two year old is using more and more words
Though sometimes his sounds are quite absurd
He really wants us to understand
And our attention he does try to command
He's struggling with saying his "please" and "thank yous"
Never quite sure which one he should use
Now he says "please" for everything
And I find his logic quite amazing
If he uses "please" over and over
The "politeness rules" he's sure to cover

Listening to my kids always keeps me guessin'
Though there are times I AM taught the lesson
That out of the mouths of babes you'll find
Logic and wisdom that's one-of-a-kind!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

WEIGH DOWN DIET week 8

Well, I don’t have any loss to report. I let stress get the better of me this week. I was not staying “self-controlled and alert.” For this, I am ashamed. However, I am starting over again. Today, I am fasting. I am clearing my mind and getting my focus back on what it needs to be…not worry, not stress, not the what ifs in life, but on God. After all, he has the victory in everything doesn’t he?

I have to share with you a question my friend Tracey recently posed to her readers on her blog In Word Adorning. She said that when she was growing up her father would ask his children, “If you were on trial for being a Christian, would there be enough evidence to convict you?” This question has not left my mind since I read a few days ago. If I am acting with worry and fear in my heart, then am I acting as a Christian should? Don’t I know God is in control? I have also thought of David a lot this week. When he set out to slay the lion and bear killing his sheep, he did so with the mind that God would give him the victory. Then when up against Goliath, he didn’t wonder if God would grant him success, he KNEW.

I have to tell you friends, I have lived with entirely too much doubt. God is the creator of all things. God will take care of me, and give me victories. Doesn’t God tell me to “ask and you shall receive?” (Matt 7:7) Instead, I am like Peter when walking out to Christ on the water….my focus has not been on him and now Jesus is saying to me, “You of little faith, why do you doubt?” (Matt 14:31)

And if I am behaving this way, could I ever be convicted of being a faithful Christian? Who in my life is watching me and not convinced of my actions or my God because of my behavior?

I am starting over again today. Here are my verses for those of you who are also struggling with issues in your own life.

Philipians 1:6
Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus

James 1:4
Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Luke 18:27
Jesus replied, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.

20 POUNDS LOST 99 DAYS TO GO

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Commercials...

I should have been clear
When writing before
My involvement in commercials
Is nothing to get excited for
They were not big business
Not like McDonalds came calling
My "stardom" was local
Nothing much for recalling

When I was in high school
Sporting a smaller physique
I was asked to model
For a lady's formal boutique
During the time
I was modeling for her
She decided to film
A commercial to lure

Then in my twenties
After buying a car
the dealership filmed
A commercial to star
New owners of vehicles
Purchased there on their lot
Telling the public
About the new car they bought

As you can see
No real reason to freak
But it is a tidbit
People do find unique!