Ever had to break bad news to someone? Ever had to break the bad news to yourself? Neither are fun, and today I feel like I'm doing both. Breaking bad news to my readers and to myself. It's probably easier for you to hear/read than it is for me to write.
I am unchanged in my weight as of this morning. I am frustrated with myself that I continue to allow my greed to overtake me. I have been trying to figure out where I keep failing. I actually do quite well during the day. I always wait for hunger. Usually, during the day my boys keep me pretty busy so I don't have much time to even think about food. My biggest struggle comes from eating at night with the family. I do wait until I'm hungry, but when the meal is placed before me, I do not stop when I am full.....I just keep shoveling it in. (And honestly, I don't know why - the food isn't that good as I'm not a good cook!) But that's what I'm doing. I can give you every excuse in the world:
1) It's the end of the day and I'm tired....I let my guard down
2) I am so distracted by the million things that always seem to happen once the hubby comes home
3) I like sitting at the table as long as I can so that Mr. Wonderful and I can catch up...as I do, I feel like I must keep eating
4) Excuses
5) Excuses
6) Excuses
Should I go on?
I have GOT to change things up. I feel like I have been sleeping these past three weeks. ENOUGH! Time to WAKE UP! Here's what I am going to do to be more alert.
ONE, I ordered the Gwen Shamblin's book Rise Above and it arrived on Monday. I have yet to read it, but I am starting today. I know that any time I'm reading a book, the words tend to linger in my mind throughout the day. That's why I like reading my Bible first thing in the morning. The words stay with me throughout the day.
TWO, thus far I have only weighed once a week. I was afraid if I weighed daily I would get discouraged when I saw no change on the scales. I am going start weighing every morning first thing (and then follow it with a STRONG cup of coffee!) I hope this will also help keep me more focused.
THREE, I have a new verse I am going to memorize. It's not long. It's not profound. It is something I feel I can continually say to myself throughout the day.
1 Thessalonians 5:6
So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be alert and self-controlled
Until we meet again, my friends!
21 POUNDS LOST 30 DAYS TO GO!
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Hi Jaime...I respect your honesty with yourself, that is really important! It is a difficult process, you've tripped over, but you can get back up again, yes it takes your will and determination and God will strengthen you and carry you through. Praying for you!
ReplyDeleteJaime, you are pressing on in spite of disappointment and that's the main thing. You can do this my friend and I'm doing it right along with you!
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
Lisa
That is a good verse!! Keep putting one foot in front of the other!
ReplyDeleteDon't kick yourself around too much, Jaime. I find hormonal fluctuations wreak havoc on my weight. I may not eat any differently, but be up a few pounds because of PMS junk. You know I take a different approach to weighing myself. I only do it once every few weeks. I find I stress over it less. But knowing that number every morning might help motivate you in better eating habits too.
ReplyDeleteAnd be happy. No loss is better than gain! Love you!
One thing that I have found that really helps me a lot when I'm still sitting at the table enjoying the company it to put my napkin on my plate and push it away from me. I do this when i go out with friends, my hubby or anytime when I'm still sitting visiting but know it's time to stop. I think it helps because it's not staring me in the face and I would never take off my dirty napkin and start eating again. I've also found that the more I get into the audio cd's, books, Bible, etc. the easier it is for me to stary focused. That is my goal this week too is to get into the truth more. Good luck! Don't give up! Just try try try again! That's what I'm doing. Your poems are SO fun and cute BTW! I love to write poetry as well. I just haven't for quite sometime. Thanks for sharing with us! :)
ReplyDeleteI think your new verse is a VERY good one. One thing I've read OVER & OVER recently--don't let yourself get hungry. I won't go into detail here or this comment will be post-length, but the theory is that our bodies need calories as energy, when we get hungry it's like a gas tank running on fumes. It trips several hormones that MAKE us eat more. the idea is to eat a controlled amount every four hours to stave off hunger. Our bodies will learn the schedule and stop holding onto fat. Do some research on it and see if it has the ring of truth to you as it has to me. Keep your focus on HIM and not on food. Hugs to you my friend! :D
ReplyDeleteOh Jaime, I'm with you. Don't despair. Let's pick ourselves up and start again tomorrow.
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